The Lord will equip me with everything I need to do His will.
But He isn’t going to equip me with what I think I need in order to be somebody else or do something other than what He has made me to do. He designed me to be me. He put gifts and passions inside of me to direct me into His plan for me.
If it seems I am lacking something, it might not really be that I am lacking something I need. I might be trying to be and do what I am not designed for and lacking for that.
Maybe I need to find my own personal gifts that I already have and do something with them instead of trying to get equipped to do something other than what I am make for or be like everyone else’s thoughts and ideas of what I should be.
Scriptures:
The Lord will strengthen, complete, perfect and make me what I ought to be and equip me with everything good that I may carry out His will. He Himself is working in me and accomplishing that which is pleasing in His sight. (Hebrews 13:21)
It is God who is all the while effectually at work in me energizing and creating in me the power and desire both to will and to work for His good pleasure and satisfaction and delight (Philippians 2:13).
He gives me the desire to do something for Him; then He empowers me to do it. He doesn’t empower me to do something someone else has the desire for me to do.
I am not fit (qualified and sufficient in ability) in myself… but my power and ability and sufficiency are from God. He qualifies me, makes me fit and worthy and sufficient as a minister and dispenser of the new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit (2 Corinthians 2:4-5).
By the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me isn’t for nothing, fruitless and without effect. In fact, I work harder than all of them, though it was not really I but the grace of God which was with me (1 Corinthians 15:10).
I get further when I work with the grace on me. If I work against the grace on me, I get frustrated and find myself unfruitful.
For this purpose (to present every person mature, complete and perfect in Christ), I work with all the superhuman energy which He so mightily enkindles and works within me (Colossians 1;29).
Working with the grace in me and on me is working alongside and connected to the superhuman energy which He so mightily enkindles and works in me.
Ephesians 2:10 – For we are God’s [own] handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live].
I am God’s handiwork, His workmanship. He planned me out before the foundation of the world. I am created to do specific good works that I was created for. This is what I am equipped for.
Matthew 11:28-30 – Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. [I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.] Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart, and you will find rest (relief and ease and refreshment and recreation and blessed quiet) for your souls. For My yoke is wholesome (useful, good—not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant), and My burden is light and easy to be borne.
If I am trying to wear the wrong yoke, my life is one of labor, heavy-laden and overburdened. There is only rest and peace for me when I walk with Him, wearing the yoke with Him, the yoke I was specifically designed for. Walking in my purpose with Him I find rest, relief, ease, refreshment, recreation and blessed quiet.
Being who I am made to be is wholesome, useful and good and not harsh, hard, sharp or pressing. I am comfortable only when I am being who I am made to be.
John 15:4-5 – Dwell in Me, and I will dwell in you. [Live in Me, and I will live in you.] Just as no branch can bear fruit of itself without abiding in (being vitally united to) the vine, neither can you bear fruit unless you abide in Me. I am the Vine; you are the branches. Whoever lives in Me and I in him bears much (abundant) fruit. However, apart from Me [cut off from vital union with Me] you can do nothing.
The only true fruit I can bear is the fruit that comes through my union with Him. I can’t bear good fruit if I am trying to bear a different kind of fruit than the vine He has made me. I can never bear good fruit trying to be someone other than who He has made me to be. I can never bear good fruit trying to force myself in the mold of the (church) world around me.
I have to find who I am and fine my own personal purpose and do that. That and only that is what He will equip me for. Only in doing that will I find the fulfillment, peace and fruitfulness I seek.